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I feel the world
And it’s letting me in
Like rainstorms form rivers
Melting spring snow
Sun bleaches bone
Wild fire ashes and opening pinecone
Sleep evades
It’s both too early and too late
I feel the world wake
Hip shake
Earth quake
I feel the world wake
Tremors inside my inner thigh
My inner thought
My inner light
It stirs that sound
That sound
The one you never heard
But always knew
Coursing through
The world
Uncoiling its snake self
Slow slither and hiss
Come hither it said
Come into yourself
I feel the world
And it’s letting me in-hale
Hatching seed, chick, and silk worm
I feel the world
Exhale
Mist and moonshine
Melon rind and vine ripened grape
Both too early and too late
I feel the world
It wants to dance
Seamless
Between body and sound
We are solid but move fluid
Liquefaction
Contraction
The waters break
I am born
Again
Still
Dancing
Too early
And too late
I hear the world
The original sound
From when the world unwound
Found itself in its own sequence of sun circles
Orbit moon and gas giants
Singing
All singing
Come into yourself
So I return to the blood rhythm
Pulse
Iron and oxygen
I come into myself
Deep, deep
Into myself
And I feel the world
Wake
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I’m the shaking figure of outrage
Prompted by my own anxiety.
I’m the lack of credible news that forced a dependency on comedians,
And got upset when they told jokes.
I’m the like and the dislike wrapped into a single click;
The sound and its historical influence borders inaudible.
I’m the tongue-in-cheek commentary on millennial vanity
And the gaze that never breaks from my face
On a video call.
I’m the social reject,
Turned hip,
That now rejects social rejects,
God if I could only be one again.
I’m a Tabula Rasa by Jackson Pollock.
An overly accessible addition to poetics.
I’m a writer that god forbid appeals to the casual reader.
I’m Cerberus crossed with a Golden Retriever.
I’m the expensive suit that becomes my skin.
If only the liner could be made with old friends,
They’d have a chance of being seen with me on the town
With my new troupe when the wind catches a seam in the Kashmir.
I’m the question at every dinner party,
The interested, the classic “What do you do?”
Fantastic.
I’m a series of muffled sentences from your mouth
Until I can tell you what I do.
I’m the ecstatic truth
The glazing of the facts
The walking resume.
I’m the pyramid scheme,
The Snake Oil salesman of confidence
And I’m the Freshman boy
Belching it back into the gymnasium sink
I’m the pill at the party
The shame the next day
I’m the night off, wishing I was out.
I’m a solo cup of water
A sheep in the wolf’s letterman.
I’m another opportunity
Returned to sender again.
I’m the perfect first take
And the —
Fuck
I’m the perfect first take
And the real product that shows natural human error.
I’m the retail job
And a career in my field
I’m the nagging voice telling you to buy local,
To support the poor over dinner.
And I’m the luke-warm leftovers that
Passes by the needy,
The beating hearts on the street.
I’m the vibrant voice in the room networking,
And the eyes that avoid yours in public the
Following day.
I’m small talk with peers years later,
Too nervous to admit we have nothing to say.
We whip out each other’s pricks and piss
Contesting who’s syphoned more gas
In a Mad Max industry.
I’m the congrats on the achievement
And the unshakable envy in the same breath.
I’m a grid of pictures of myself
And social media inactivity, gloated
So you never forget that I consider myself above it.
I’m in the middle of it all
But stealing from both sides.
I’m the ride and the carney.
I don’t know it works,
I just start and stop it
With a flick of the switch.
I’m the salty Spoken Word Poet
The petulant Caucasian.
I’m a breath of fresh air through a Canadian
Classic.
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How little did you know as a child,
when you blew away seeds of dandelion
security of a locked psychiatric ward
against black-and-white
flower growing out of asphalt
sit close, Daughter,
diminish the distance
How did you become homeless?
Barren and beautiful
on a rainy Saturday
don’t just look at it
look through it
underclass:
who possess nothing
that matters
the street marginality
away from your house
aimless wandering
and familiar faces
dandelion
“Isn’t that a weed?”
You will see,
not just those who now crowd
the asylums.
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Keep me company
When I want to be alone
Just you beside me
Olive Coloured Tan
Amazingly Wonderful
Smiles and Carefree
Joyful Raspiness
Resonates throughout the room
Love as company
Late night chats with you
Always make my day better
Blissful and lovely
Telling a story
Brighter than any movie
Dreaming is vivid
Glimpse of your smile
Hoping you notice me
Noticing you shine
Texting Good morning
I'm grateful for your Glasses.
Smirking framed windows.
Gets me every time.
Pooched Eyes, joint smoking.
Quiet Puff Puff Pass.
Calm and collected.
Pass it to the left hand side.
My eyes get slanted.
Long arm of the smoke.
From a lit tip of this joint.
Happiness only.
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Chilly Chilly
Snowflakes falling willy nilly
Boots, coats, mittens
Bundled up
I’m looking silly
People look at me, like “really”?
Don’t need approval, clearly
Like a herald angel, hark, hear me
Fear me
Destruction coming nearly
Destruction coming nearly
Destruction coming nearly
Destruction coming nearly
Destruction coming nearly
(verse X 4)
Chilly Chilly
Snowflakes falling willy nilly
Boots, coats, mittens
Bundled up
I’m looking silly
People look at me, like “really”?
Don’t need approval, clearly
Like a herald angel, hark, hear me
Fear me
Destruction coming nearly
Over and over and over these boots trek
Wearily
I’m tired
Frostbitten, just got fired
Smoke a fatty now I’m wired
You’re hired.
Eyes glassy, presentation skills classy
I’m salty like my lassi
I’ll school ya
Don’t put it past me
Teach you how to act less trashy, Ashley
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hello hollow sunrise
those empty eyes that wake me up
in the morning –
my own, in the mirror
staring back at me;
this island earth yawning open with
stinking gums,
eyes sunk like ships
for sleep that never comes;
the wreck of the Titanic,
ruins of Atlantis
stuck in the small of my back;
my hips,
my endless pits thick with black
where good pirates go to die
and life dives down to grow
hideous teeth
eyes of frosted glass
headlamps to find their ways with
bioluminescence.
good morning, good morning
you will seize upon this day like Napoleon
of mountain and crag,
of meadow and slag-heap;
you will weep for the meek
kissing angelic rulers’ feet, for they are
far greater than the greatest of us;
picking callouses flaked off in your teeth
like holier sacraments and all of their chips.
hello hollow sunrise
fashion your hideous teeth
and feed on coral rock
straight from the reef –
hello perfect darkness
and perfect disguises,
those moonlight eyes
and depth of soul where sun don’t reach.
oh wise of salt and sand
and sweat that splits open hands,
oh empty crabshells blood red
and rash of barnacled rock,
oh rotten teeth
where the ocean erodes
and where i have forgotten to floss
for the past twenty-seven years.
good morning hip pain back pain
carpet stain memory drain
mirror that so thoughtfully decapitates
my reflection amid the stunning view
of my growing midsection.
hello November election Syrian war
pax Americana puking in an alley behind
a Moscow factory – hello ISIS
hello overdose crisis hello homelessness
tent cities and housing up thirty-percent
on the commodity markets –
hello false land claims and colonial exploitation
hello Mother England and the Queen who
protects our association,
Buckingham Palace corgi-keep heated by the
exploited fucking classes,
hello alt-right fanboy fascists and left left
far behind –
hello these hands in my face
splashing water;
i will wash these hands.
i will brush my teeth. (and floss.)
i will pick up my feet
and strengthen my hips
(without begrudging them their width, they
are only where my lover holds me).
hello big hard cock when i awoke
but when i am awake i am tired soft
when i am awake, head heavy
say hello to every spizz-pop crackling
static bubble bursting into my inner
inner ear –
i can hear all of the names in histor
i can hear banging away
the philosopher’s hammer,
oh Nietzsche!
my mind slipped a disc and the track skipped
i am twisted mental fitness
Narcissus of gymnasium adorned in mirrors
landscape of depleted middle-income suburbia
performance of the power lifter powering
through a hernia,
toxic masculinity, i am divinity
as true as ritual and words in a book.
i wear words in my look,
hello old tattoo that i don’t like
and new tattoo i do –
hello stories i am telling myself
as i look at myself in the mirror this morning:
hello hollow sunrise,
the sunshine is out,
it is pouring
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They don’t want you to talk about it
How it starts off with platitudes of romance, pedestals, and adoration and, once trust is earned, follow, control, jealousy, subtle manipulation, systematic isolation, microscopic concentration.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How you got so swept up in the romance, the music, the passion, the project, convinced by them that you were their savior, and it is through you and you alone that they may reach exultation.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How at some point that ability to save turned into an all-consuming responsibility, but by then the burden was so familiar that you had grown comfortable in the discomfort, and reaching for something different or better seemed like something that only other people deserved.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How the loneliness seeps into your bones like a teabag that’s been left steeping three days too long.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How they know everyone in the outside world looks in and sees this dreamy, idyllic life that is so far from the truth that you dare not speak a word.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How everything feels like your fault, how you’re always saying sorry, how the feeling of eggshells on the soles of your feet is familiar as the rising sun.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How your friends still keep in touch, but mostly just look at you with sad eyes and long sighs and lamentations and recitations of memories of better times.
They don’t want you to talk about it
How sex is used as a tool to glean vulnerability and connection that would otherwise not be given.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How your money disappears faster than you can make it and there’s always an extraordinary explanation as to why those dollars where so desperately needed.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How they’ll buy drugs before eggs, milk, and cheese.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How they’ll beat you and then take you for dinner, but not before asking you to wear long sleeves to hide your bruised skin.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How you wait ‘til they leave to allow the heaves, the sobs and sadness take over and, just for a moment, oblivion surrounds you, and you forget just how far from yourself you’ve become.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How you can fit into jeans from when you were sixteen and the bones in your hips jut out in a way that no one whose hips have born a child should jut.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How you have the capacity to rise up, to heal, to transcend, to totally annihilate the false self that they have been convincing you it you for far too long.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How you and everyone else in this world is individually responsible for creating and maintaining your own happiness and wellbeing.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How deep down you know belonging in a real is always more important than looking good.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
How with courage, honesty, connection, and heart, freedom may be sought, and that no matter what, life is never easy, but it can be joyful.
They don’t want you to talk about it.
And they certainly don’t want me to talk to you about it, and yet, here we are.
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“Write something coherent and down to earth”
I told myself, but noticed several bears
Bearing down rather incoherently
So I performed a quick double-take and
Clambered across marshmallow rockfaces
Chunks of the sweet obstacle came away
Nestling beneath my desperate fingernails
As the beasts grew near with spittle and claw
My furthest back arm was casually mauled:
Scarlet splatter upon porcelain treat
I treated the wound without breaking stride
A handful of marshmallow, applied hard
On the gash and I ran steadfast up
To the edge of this particular cliff so
Soft and white, save for the blood, I jumped
And realized the rock was soft so then rolled
Down the marshmallow bluffs, still bleeding but
Safe, for now, since bears are stupid and scared
And don’t really understand the concept
Of cliffs made out of marshmallows
I trudged on, upon the jagged expanse
Of gelatin that stretched beneath regal
Violet horizons. The sun struck my back
And beads of sweat whispered as they slid down
To the tensile surface of my journey
The sun was at its crux now, the pulsating orb
Of energy burrowing its radiations under my skin and
Into my ears. I heard something sizzle and noticed
The marshmallow surface upon which I plodded
Was darkening to a delicious looking golden-brown
While normally I’d rejoice at an evenly browned
Marshmallow, my arm’s deep wound was throbbing
And my hastening strides began to cause cracks in the
Crisp surface, my boots sticking to the ground at each
Step and needing to be laboriously peeled away
I stumbled on, upon the jagged expanse
Of gelatin that stretched beneath regal
Violet horizons. The sun struck my back
And beads of sweat whispered as they slid down
To the flexible surface of my journey
I appeared to be in the clear, which proved
To be a problem as a hollow screech
From up above left me frozen in my
Confection-laden footwear, my pasty
Boots from which I wrenched my feet in swift fear
Regaining my wits, and throwing myself
Forwards, arms outstretched flailing, pushing off
The ground as this bird of prey swooped downwards
And my now-bare foot collided head-on
With a chocolate chunk of sorts, not a chip
It chipped my talus, a bone in the foot
Stopping me in my tracks, and tracking
More blood, now from my swollen and bare feet
Mingling with the gore from my still-mauled arm
And talons once again bore down from above
A spray of feather pierced my sightline as
The bears made short work of that flying beast
Having tracked my scent, they careened at me
With feral intensity I stopped and
Bit my into my lip until it bled then
Turned around, stumbling, favoring my
Functional foot, my arm no longer stinging
Unable to feel a thing, facing death
I knew it couldn’t end like this, not in
A field of marshmallow, fatally mauled by
These two fools of nature, this sheer brawn
I’d try to shout but choked on my shortness
Of breath and let out a wide, hollow,
Harrowing cough, better described as a
Bark, a bellow – the bears stopped in their tracks
Having been frightened by the booming sound
And I tore at the ground in a rage,
An adrenaline-fueled frenzy of pure
Confusion I shook and wept, my body
Trembling, volatile upon the soft surface
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